Sadie’s Winter Solstice Surrender

It may have been as ridiculous

As striving to restrain a rushing nor’easter

But every year at Christmas time

Sadie worked to stop her dark

She tried so hard

Pushing and pulling the light all around her

Decorating with ornaments and tinsel

Stringing together comfort like

It is impossible to give until it hurts

Sadie wrapped presents

Gave kisses

And tried not to notice

As every year her hands began to close

And her stomach grew knots

That fear rising

Afraid of what she could not stop

Sadie would struggle against

Her dark coming

Singing carols, writing cards

Until her thoughts came too slow and cloudy

So just as the child was ready to be born

Sadie would fall curled up on her couch

Drinking warm holiday tea

Staring into the candles lined up on her tree

It was then every year

That Christmas held Sadie

All her fear and dark

Could never stop that bright

And although Sadie could only sit

Wide eyed and very quiet

She was thankful for the birth

As she let go–

Embraced in the sweet child’s light.



4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. abichica
    Jan 06, 2014 @ 05:11:41

    beautiful, just wonderful. 🙂


  2. 12kilroy
    Jan 08, 2014 @ 07:37:16

    This is wonderful (and familiar).


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